Day 53 in the Land of the Free

Looking back years from now on our post-transplant life in the hotel, it will probably seem surreal that we were here, in our little bubble, during a time of such historic turmoil and transition. We chatted about the build-up to the election with friendly strangers in the hotel lobby or fellow patients on the 11th floor. We celebrated the election of our nation's first African American president with the kids who work the weekday nightshift at the front desk, Kelvin and Chris. We've watched the economy unravel on TV and online, only occasionally taking an anxious peek at our own retirement account (also online). This week, we've once again relied on the Internet as we've helplessly and angrily followed the announcement by Scripps that they intend to sell the oldest newspaper in Colorado, The Rocky Mountain News, and that if they can't find a buyer by sometime in January they're going to shut it down...sounding yet another death toll for the once-great tradition of the two-newspaper town. I know this hits me harder because I'm from a newspaper family and because I'm worried about my brother, Alex, who's among the many hard-working Rocky staffers who may soon be looking for work. For me, the Rocky--that good old tabloid format you can hold in one hand on the bus and the hurried smell of raw ink and cheap paper--is like family. It's the memory of great mornings sitting at Winchell's donuts with Dad when he'd let us have a donut and 7-Up for breakfast while he had his coffee and cigarette and we all read the funnies, which were really funny back then. It's the last gasp of the great newspaper battles that I took very seriously when I was little, truly believing that a Sun-Times family was in some small way just a little bit superior to a Tribune family. The demise of the Rocky isn't the war in Iraq. It's not even page 10 news in most parts of the world. It's just one more hurt in a long list of hurts created by an economy that for too long has benefitted greed and opportunism. And it's not like I'd feel any differently or be doing anything differently if Torger and I weren't living here in the hotel through it all. We wouldn't be taking to the streets in protest. But we would be talking about it with people we know, feeling somehow more engaged and connected with our own little community. Even with e-mail and letters and phone calls, there's a sense of separateness that characterizes our lives right now that sometimes is tough, even while at other times it can be almost comforting. We both felt it during the snow this week, when for the first time, we just really missed our house and being home. Even with friends keeping an eye on things, we worry about the snow getting shoveled and the gutters piling up with leaves and how our neighbors are doing and whether Mom and Rich are having trouble on the icy roads. I've had a cracked tooth that's been pretty painful, and even with a referral to a good Denver dentist, I found myself really, really..almost unreasonably...missing my own dentist in my own hometown. Living in a hotel is fun, in its way, and we're here because this is where we have to be now, at this time in our lives. And we like being together. But it's clear that by the end of our 100 days, we'll be more than ready to move out of this bubble and be back in the world.