Day 212--Wow! That Went Fast!

Torger's second hundred days post-transplant just zipped by. The first hundred days, with the long hotel stay and constant appointments, seemed so monumental, but the second hundred days passed while the calendar largely just sat in my desk drawer unmarked. Either we've really started to slack, or life is getting much closer to normal. We go down to Denver tomorrow for another bone marrow biopsy to check for any signs of the leukemia returning, and then we're hoping Torger won't have to have another biopsy for six months to even a year. He's gotten pretty sly about wheedling Dr. Tse into giving him what he wants. Each visit, Torger plots to ask for something...scaling back the infusions, reducing the number of weekly blood draws, etc. And usually, he's pretty successful at getting his way. Two weeks ago, we were able to stop his magnesium and saline infusions entirely, which is a huge step. That process has been a huge pain in the rear for both of us...mostly for Torger, who had to haul the pump and saline bag around the house for three hours a day. He still has the Hickman catheter in his chest, so I'm still flushing his lines with heparin every night, but we think they'll even be taking the catheter out soon. Torger's been a good sport, but he admits it's hard to sleep with the catheter's three lines and associated hardware all poking him in the chest. He also persuaded Dr. Tse to take him off his blood pressure medication, which they'd put him on because of all the other drugs he's taking. Torger's never needed blood pressure medication before, and Dr. Tse agreed that there's no point in keeping him on it now. In fact, they're so NOT worried about Torger's cholesterol that they've instructed him to drink whole milk instead of skim and to eat at least a couple of eggs a day! Apparently, his body needs protein and fats right now, and since he's still struggling to keep his weight up, he gets to eat all the ice cream he wants these days. Not too bad, eh?

One Year Down!

Yesterday marked exactly a year since our local doctor put us in an ambulance and sent us down to Denver because of Torger's astonishingly high white cell count. That was a terrible day, and not exactly something we want to spend a lot of time reminiscing about...but this is an important anniversary, so I'm going to reminisce just a little.

Here's where we started on May 12, 2009: Torger had been feeling sick for weeks with what felt like a flu bug that he just couldn't shake. I was actually getting irritated with him because he seemed to be napping constantly and not keeping up with things that needed doing. He was apologetic, but just kept saying that he had no energy and needed to get over his darn cold. Then he started bruising from just lying in bed. An urgent-care doctor had put him on antibiotics and sent us home, telling us to give them time to work. When I called the doctor back mid-week because the drugs didn't seem to be working, he said we just needed to give them time and scheduled us in for an appointment a week later. We spent an awful weekend during which Torger couldn't eat and spent all day and night rocking on the couch or dragging himself from one end of the house to the other because he was afraid to go to sleep. He resisted going back to the doctor, still thinking this was just a bug he could fight off if he worked at it. So I tried to go into work on Monday morning, even though I was a wreck, and my boss and friend, John Lincoln, ordered me to go home and drag Torger back to the doctor. So I did (Torger didn't require much convincing by that point). We saw another urgent-care doctor this time, Dr. Rubright, who took one look at Torger and ordered some blood tests. Then he told us to go home and wait for his call. He called an hour later and told us to get over to the hospital. Torger was feeling hungry and wanted to sleep, so I asked if we needed to go right away...and Dr. Rubright got stern and essentially said to get our butts over there. We went to the local hospital, and they had an ambulance ready to take us to Denver. While we were waiting for the transfer orders to go through, we sat in a room on the oncology floor. Beverly, the nurse on duty, was the first to intimate to us that Torger probably had leukemia...she hugged us both and told us we were going to need to gear up for a fight. Then an oncologist came in and explained that Torger's white cell count was too high to treat in Fort Collins, so they had the ambulance ready to take us to Denver and there was a room waiting for him at University Hospital. Somewhere in there I called or e-mailed my mom to let her know and to make sure she could feed our cat, who was still alive at the time.

The ambulance ride was kind of fun. Torger was alert and cracking jokes the whole time, to the astonishment of the EMTs. They showed us the different tools they had in the back of the vehicle for dealing with different kinds of crises...and they got us to Denver in record time.

We were taken immediately up to the 11th floor Bone Marrow Transplant unit. Dr. Eamon Burge, a resident, met us and explained that, even though it was late in the day by that point, he'd persuaded the apheresis team to stay and treat Torger because his white count was at such dangerous levels. Everyone seemed astonished that Torger was even conscious, much less trying to talk to people. They put a port in Torger's neck and Jessica Jones, the apheresis tech, spent most of the night with us, operating the machine that essentially sucked the excess white cells out of Torger's body. She showed me the bags of cells that she was pulling out, and they looked like pureed tomatoes...they were that thick. When your blood fills up with such a surplus of thick, pulpy cells, your heart and arteries can't pump it any more. In a short amount of time, if untreated, the pressure exerted on his optic nerve would have blinded him, but that wouldn't have been much of a problem because he would have been dead anyway.

They had to give him a couple of pheresis treatments before his cell levels were under control, but over the next couple of days, the doctors on duty--Dr. Burge and a post-doctoral fellow, Dr. Tut--confirmed with us that their biopsies showed Torger had leukemia. Dr. Tut sat down with me while Torger was having his catheter lines put in and again warned me that we were in for a long and painful treatment process that would definitely involve chemotherapy and might require a bone marrow transplant. Dr. Tse was out of town at a meeting at this point, so we didn't meet him for several more days...and we wouldn't learn for sometime that Torger was his first transplant patient since he'd arrived at University Hospital.

Torger stayed in the hospital for nearly a month after first round, going through his initial cycle of chemotherapy. Garry and Carolyn gave him binoculars so he could enjoy the view from his 11th floor window...he watched the entire Colfax marathon that way last Memorial Day. The rest of the summer went by in a blur of doctor's appointments and trips up and down I-25. By fall, we were ready for the transplant and everything it entailed.

And now, here we are looking back from the vantage point of a whole year gone by. The last month at our house has been pretty germy. Torger had some spots on his lungs that were tested and re-tested and don't seem to have been an issue. His cough cleared up, and then I got it...and a little bit of strep in the bargain. Then Torger caught a full-fledged cold...the first real test of his baby immune system (aided, of course, by a continual dose of antivirals and antibacterials). It was hard to watch him dealing with it last week. It was clear that his entire body was working on fighting the cold virus, and he was paler and sicker looking than any cold sufferer I've ever seen. But he got through!! He still has some sniffles, but he got through!! He noted that even two months ago, he doesn't think he could have beaten a bug like this one, and now he can.

That's what this whole year has been about. A year from now, looking back, this will all seem so strange and remote. Torger will sneeze, and it won't wake me in the middle of the night in a panic. He'll get a scrape on his leg, and we won't race for the topical ointments. We won't be agonizing over every pound he loses wondering why. We're not there yet, but we will be.

Thanks to all of you who have stayed connected (or in some wonderful cases, reconnected) through this blog and other means this past year. We're really, really grateful for the friendship and continued support, and we look forward to a time when we can do a lot more giving and a lot less receiving. Just another year can make all the difference.